I can't make you love me...if you don't
more about "I can't make you love me...if you don't", posted with vodpod
If you love soulful music you will love Bonnie Raitt...she sings from the heart.
We all know how much it can hurt to love someone that doesn't love us back in the same way. This song expresses what it's like...and the hurt can last a lifetime.
Bring Him Home Santa
It won't be long before Christmas is here and all the little children will be missing there Daddies. Just like this little girl in the video, she sings to Santa asking him to please bring her daddy home.
Bless the children and our Troops, Please God keep them safe and bring them home.
The Uninsured are Dying
Who says it isn't hurting anyone to be without health insurance....not I...it makes sense to put off check ups when you don't have the money to pay or to wait as long as you can hoping you feel better when you get sick...They know it is hurting us, They did a Study on on it.
So how can we ignore the truth?
So how can we ignore the truth?
 clipped from www.dailykos.comConservative Policy Advisor Steps In It On Health Care
 clipped from images.dailykos.com
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Firefox #3 the Best Browser Ever
Firefox Features
Top New Features
One-Click Bookmarking
Bookmark, search and organize Web sites quickly and easily.
Instant Web Site ID
Avoid online scams, unsafe transactions and forgeries with simple site identity.
Improved Performance
View Web pages faster, using less of your computer’s memory.
Full Zoom
See any part of a Web page, up close and readable, in seconds.
Smart Location Bar
Find the sites you love in seconds—enter a term for instant matches that make sense.
Platform-Native Look & Feel
Browse with a Firefox that’s integrated into your computer’s operating system.
Password Manager
Remember site passwords without ever seeing a pop-up.
Personal
Library
Make your browser as efficient as you can imagine. Your browsing history (all the websites you’ve seen) and your bookmarks (all the websites you’ve saved) are archived in the Library, where they can be easily searched and organized. You can also save your frequent searches in dynamic smart folders that automatically update as your bookmark list and history grow.
Smart Location Bar
A quick way to get to the sites you love—even the ones with addresses you only vaguely remember. The new Firefox 3 location bar learns as you use it—it’s so highly evolved that we like to call it the “Awesome Bar”. Over time, it adapts to your preferences and offers better fitting matches. Type in a term and the autocomplete function includes possible matching sites from your browsing history, as well as sites you’ve bookmarked and tagged in a drop down. For example, you could enter the tag: “investments” to find “www.fool.com”. Matched terms are highlighted, making the list of results easy to scan.
One-Click Bookmarking
Manage your bookmarks a lot or a little. One click on the star icon at the end of the location bar bookmarks a site. Two clicks and you can choose where to save it and whether to tag it. File bookmarked sites in easy-to-access folders and organize according to theme (like “job search” or “favorite shopping”). Find your bookmarked sites in a flash by entering the tag, page or bookmark name into the location bar. The more you use your tags and bookmark names in the location bar, the more the system will adapt to your preferences.
Smart Bookmark Folders
These dynamic folders give you easy access to your favorite sites and can be placed in your Bookmarks menu or Bookmarks toolbar. We’ve included some for you as defaults, including one that shows you the sites you visit most frequently (create your own by saving your searches in the Library).
Security & Privacy
Instant Web Site ID
Want to be extra sure about a site’s legitimacy before you make a purchase? Click on a site favicon for an instant identity overview. Another click digs deeper: how many times have you visited? Are your passwords saved? Check up on suspicious sites, avoid Web forgeries and make sure a site is what it claims to be.
Anti-Malware
Firefox 3 protects you from viruses, worms, trojan horses and spyware. If you accidentally access an attack site, you’ll receive a full-sized browser message as a warning. A continuously updated list of attack-sites tells us when to stop you from browsing, so there’s nothing for you to update or maintain.
Parental Controls
Enforce parental control settings you’ve entered on Windows Vista with Firefox 3—stop unwanted downloads and more. Firefox’s intuitive design keeps you from second-guessing your setup.
Clear Private Data
Clear your private data automatically—with just one click or a keyboard shortcut. Your info is gone for good—on your own computer or the one at your local library. It’s that easy.
Anti-Virus Software
Firefox 3 integrates elegantly with your antivirus software. When you download a file, your computer’s antivirus program automatically checks it to protect you against viruses and other malware, which could otherwise attack your computer. [available in Windows only]
Anti-Phishing
Shop and do business safely on the Internet. Firefox gets a fresh update of web forgery sites 48 times in a day, so if you try to visit a fraudulent site that’s pretending to be a site you trust (like your bank), a browser message—big as life—will stop you.
Add-ons
Firefox looks for a secure connection before installing or updating add-ons, 3rd party software, and Personas.
Customized Security Settings
Control the level of scrutiny you’d like Firefox to give a site and enter exceptions—sites that don’t need the third degree. Customize settings for passwords, cookies, loading images and installing add-ons for a fully empowered Web experience.
Automated Update
Our open-source security strategy lets us find—and fix—security issues in record time, making Firefox the safest way to surf. Install upgrades when you receive automatic notification or wait until you’re ready.
Password Manager
We’ve seamlessly integrated this feature into your surfing experience. Choose to “remember” site passwords without intrusive pop-ups. Now you’ll see the “remember password” notification integrated into your view at the top of the site page.
Pop-Up Blocker
Banish pop-ups (and pop-under windows) from your surfing experience once and for all. Or, find a happy medium—choose to view blocked pop-ups or create an “allow” list of sites whose pop-ups you’re okay with seeing.
Customization
Add-ons Manager
You can now find and install add-ons directly in your browser. You no longer need to visit the add-ons Web site, simply fire up the new Add-ons Manager. Not sure which add-on is right for you? Ratings, recommendations, descriptions and pictures of the add-ons in action help you make your selection. The fully integrated Add-ons Manager even lets you view, manage and disable third-party add-ons in a few easy clicks.
Over 5,000 ways to customize
The sky’s the limit with a growing library of over 5,000 Firefox Add-ons, little extras you choose to download and install for a browser that works your way. Manage online auctions, upload digital photos, see the weather forecast in a glance and listen to music all from the convenience of your browser. There’s no need to open a new window or tab for each task. Discover add-ons that help you streamline coding and Web development, like Firebug, which lets you look deep into the structure of a web page.
Browser Look & Feel
Dress up your browser as you like it. With themes, choose a darkened control panel reminiscent of a space ship, faux wood paneling, or hundreds of other unique looks to surround your surfing. With Personas, add a simple, lightweight “skin” to your browser in an instant. (Personas is a Mozilla Labs project.)
Beyond Add-ons
Add-ons are the cornerstone of customization, but adapting Firefox to suit your style doesn’t stop there. You can add new search engines, change toolbar preferences, display different sizes, shapes and styles for your browser’s navigation buttons and more. With additional preferences, you can specify a Web mail client, such as Gmail, to open up when you click on an address from a Web page or set up a news reader application for the blogs you encounter.
Productivity
Platform-Native Look & Feel
The new Firefox looks and feels like home. Think of it as a Firefox who’s really good at making friends. Whether you use Windows Vista, Windows XP, Mac or Linux, the browser seamlessly integrates into your computer’s environment. A native look makes for a flawless interface that never gives you pause.
Feed Reader
You can read feeds using an online Web service, a client-side feed reader or by creating a Firefox Live Bookmark. So there’s no need to comb the Web for the latest news and updates. See the latest headlines in the toolbar or menu and go directly to the articles that catch your eye.
Download Manager
An all new manager lets you download seamlessly, with even greater security. A pause and resume feature means there’s no need to wait for a download to finish before you disconnect. So, if you’re halfway through the latest White Stripes album and it’s time to catch the bus, just pause and pick up downloading when you get home. The resume function also works if your system crashes or is forced to restart. The manager shows your download progress and lets you search your files by name or the Web address where the download came from.
Spell Checking
A built-in spell checker lets you enter text directly into Web pages— like blog posts and Web-based email—without worrying about typos and misspellings. Work directly with the Web and save yourself a step.
Session Restore
If Firefox unexpectedly closes, you don’t have to spend time recovering data or retracing your steps through the Web. If you’re in the middle of typing an email, you’ll pick up where you left off, even down to the last word you typed. Session Restore instantly brings back your windows and tabs, restoring text you entered and any in-progress downloads. Restart the browser without losing your place after you install an add-on or software update.
Full Zoom
Visit your favorite news page and read the caption under the picture—or view the picture itself in a size you can see. An elegant new zoom feature lets you swoop in and see entire web pages. They scale in the way you’d expect them to, with all the elements of a page’s layout expanding equally, so you can zero in on what matters.
Image Loading
If you want to save time and bandwidth, view a site without images. Firefox will remember your setting the next time you view the page.
Search
Smart Keywords
Search the Web in record time with smart keywords. With a few clicks you can assign keywords to search engines, and then simply enter your key and search words in the location bar. With this feature, typing “book home building” can search Amazon.com, and take you right to books about home building without ever pausing at the homepage.
Search Suggestions
Start typing in the search bar and it will prompt you with a drop down of filled-in suggestions, plus you can use the search bar as a calculator, converter and more.
Integrated Web Search
Searching the Web is a breeze with the search box inline, just to the right of your location bar. Use the web engine of your choice to search by typing directly into the box. The width is adjustable so you can make it bigger if you need more space.
Hundreds of Search Engines
Access your favorite search engines quickly from the integrated search bar. You can use a new engine for each search, or stick to your favorite. Choose from a preset dropdown list of engines or select “manage search engines” from the same list to browse search engine options offered as add-ons. Check out your choices now.
Find
The find feature appears in a keystroke. Search for a word or phrase on an open Web page. Highlight text before using the feature and finder opens pre-filled with your selection. See all instances of your search at once, or scroll backwards and forwards through the appearances of the word on the page.
Tabs
Tabs
At first glance, they look like little labels living above the site you’re currently visiting. But they are a brilliant way to browse multiple sites at once. Simple and easy, you can think of them as the electronic version of a well kept filing cabinet, with the tabs as the dividers and the sites as the content kept in folders. Each new site appears as a new tab (not a new window) and can be accessed in one click.
Save on Exit
Now when you open Firefox, your tabs and windows look just like they did when you closed it down. No need to reopen all your windows each time you start a session.
Reopen Closed Tabs
If you accidentally close a tab, you can reopen it in one click. Just view Recently Closed Tabs in the History menu and select the tab you’d like to reopen.
Drag & Reorder Tabs
Get your sites in order. Simply arrange the order of your tabs by dragging them in one swift move of your mouse.
Smooth Scrolling
Like to have all 20 of your favorite pages open at once? An elegant new feature lets you scroll through tabs easily to see them all and access the one you want quickly.
Universal Access
Universal Customization
Go beyond translation and experience the web in a way that makes sense to you. Local developers who know what’s best for their community have customized your Firefox browsing experience with local dictionaries, search providers, live bookmarks and Web feeds. Depending on where you live, you’ll see things like BBC headlines tailored to your region or experience features that work with Baidu, the Chinese search engine.
The Language of Firefox
Firefox speaks your language like no other browser on earth. Because the Web is a worldwide resource and we believe that resource belongs to the people, we’ve made our browser available in as many local languages as possible. We have over 40 different translations, from French and Chinese to Finnish and Czech. Find your language.
Improved Text Rendering
Read your language as it’s written—more like real life. With a new graphics engine, Arabic, Persian, Punjabi and other script languages now render in a remarkably seamless way.
Emphasis on Accessibility
By minimizing keystrokes, allowing users to zoom in on Web pages and supporting screen readers, Firefox is that much easier to use for those with mobility disabilities and visual impairments.
Performance
Improved Memory Management
With all new management functions in place, Firefox 3 keeps memory usage under control. The XPCOM cycle collector continuously cleans up unused memory. Plus, hundreds of memory leaks are now remedied.
Faster JavaScript
Firefox now empowers even greater Web development, with JavaScript 1.8—including expression closures, generator expression and array reduce.
Smaller Memory Footprint
Short and sweet, Firefox now uses less of your computer’s memory while it’s running.
Faster Page Load
A redesigned page rendering and layout engine means you see Web pages faster—and in the way they were meant to be seen.
Graphics Engine Improvements
Improved text rendering is just the beginning of the benefits of an all new graphic engine for Firefox 3.
Standards
Advanced Graphics
You have to see it to believe it. The rendering of text and graphics, including SVG and Canvas, is faster, sharper and more true-to-life than ever before, thanks to our new graphics engine.
Online Application Support
Expand the power of Web-based applications. In the past you’d click on an email address in a Web site and your computer’s default email application would open up to send a message to the linked address—even if you never email through the program. Now you can choose a Web mail clients (like Hotmail, Gmail or Yahoo! Mail) to launch when you click on that email address.
Color Profile Support
Photographers and photo fans, your view of the Web from Firefox just gets better. You can choose to enable top-of-the-line image display which uses technical data, like the amount of light available and relevant distance information, to render images in an amazing new way.
Support for Advanced Web Technologies
Brand new and enhanced functionalities enable Web site authors and developers to create advanced content and applications. Support is now available for CSS, ACID2, MathML, ECMAScript 4, Animated Portable Network Graphics (APNG) and Microformats, to name a few. See the full list of supported technologies.
Offline Browsing
Take your computer offline and still have information at your fingertips. Certain enabled sites may allow applications—like your Web-based email—to stay with you at all times. Many sites are not yet configured to work with this feature. Learn more about what works and what doesn’t.
Help
Live Support
We have Firefox experts waiting on stand-by to help you with questions that simply demand a live person and a real conversation. Now you can chat with knowledgeable Firefox community members who troubleshoot via our live chat site. You won’t be put on hold or have to wait for a response—solve your problem on the spot.
Firefox Support
Help is right where you would expect it, as well as a few places you might not. A link at the top of your browser takes you to a support site with the answers you’ll need. Want to dig deeper—or have a really tough question?
There's too much Negativity in the World
Sometimes I think "Why must life be so hard"? There are just so many questions to ask yourself these days. Why do I have to worry about things, about my future, however long or short it may be. They say money is the root of all evil. They also say people who say that,are the ones who have all the money.
In a way I think that is true. Some people don't know what it's like to not know how they are going to pay for the necessities, like food or utilities. I also believe that money does not make you happy. Things, do not make you happy.
What about "Quality of Life"? That has been such a big issue in the news, though I haven't heard it too much lately. But I think that is true, without money, for the necessities in life, the " Quality of Life" is pretty sorry. How can we change that?
Sometimes we have to take a risk, to be different than we usually are. I have tried to find out for myself on how I can change that. With all my aspirations, needing to do something worthy. It's become an obsession with me. I want to help other's, yet I can't seem to help myself. Day after day, night after night, sometimes all night long till the sun comes up, I have been searching. Searching for that "Quality of Life".
I thought about blogging for money, I don't have a blog that's been consistent enough, so I was rejected,that hurt. I thought my writing may be good enough, but it's not.
I've searched the entire Internet it seems, for a home based business I could do. Yes, I got scammed a few times, lost money I didn't need to lose. Don't ever bother trying to do surveys, it sounds easy and it is. Just don't forget that in order to test things out you have to do, the trial thing. Using your own money to purchase something you don't want and/or can't use. Those trial periods are over quick and before you know it you're in a hole, no refunds, and you have something that is absolutely worthless to you. Yep, I did that, it was stupid.
It's almost embarrassing, and I end up getting a lot of "I told you so", from my family. Now I think I've found something that may help me do everything I have wanted to do in my life. When it comes to how I feel about helping others and giving back, I'm still getting negative vibes. I have been working so hard at trying to make it work, it hasn't been easy. Why do some people have to make it so hard, especially when you feel like it could help them too?
So, everyone is suspicious, doubting, not trusting my intentions. I'm still going on with my plan, even if it kills me. I tried it once, and I messed up. I may never have another team as I had then. And this is even more simple than taking surveys. I can't loose any money it's free to join. The only hard part has been finding quality people who can see the same potential that I do. Someone who wants to do good for humanity, there community or church. Where do you find people like that, they say they care, but they have way too many excuses for not getting involved.
I remember I use to feel that way too, so I can understand. I found that it takes a lot more courage to keep doing something that everyone else thinks it's crazy. As long as I don't go overboard in trying to promote a free business venture, that gives you a website, gives you all the tools for marketing, all the information, plus the moral support. But I meet with resistance from people who want to make extra money, organizations that could use the funds for there charitable work. Maybe I should pitch it to the people who are well off and can afford to buy one thing a month, no matter if it's a ink cartridge for their printer like I did. I needed it anyway, I didn't have to drive all over town to look for it. That was good. It took no time to get here either. I'm proud of myself. Now if only my family could be proud of me.
Hey, at least I get to shop and still use Clipmarks....
In a way I think that is true. Some people don't know what it's like to not know how they are going to pay for the necessities, like food or utilities. I also believe that money does not make you happy. Things, do not make you happy.
What about "Quality of Life"? That has been such a big issue in the news, though I haven't heard it too much lately. But I think that is true, without money, for the necessities in life, the " Quality of Life" is pretty sorry. How can we change that?
Sometimes we have to take a risk, to be different than we usually are. I have tried to find out for myself on how I can change that. With all my aspirations, needing to do something worthy. It's become an obsession with me. I want to help other's, yet I can't seem to help myself. Day after day, night after night, sometimes all night long till the sun comes up, I have been searching. Searching for that "Quality of Life".
I thought about blogging for money, I don't have a blog that's been consistent enough, so I was rejected,that hurt. I thought my writing may be good enough, but it's not.
I've searched the entire Internet it seems, for a home based business I could do. Yes, I got scammed a few times, lost money I didn't need to lose. Don't ever bother trying to do surveys, it sounds easy and it is. Just don't forget that in order to test things out you have to do, the trial thing. Using your own money to purchase something you don't want and/or can't use. Those trial periods are over quick and before you know it you're in a hole, no refunds, and you have something that is absolutely worthless to you. Yep, I did that, it was stupid.
It's almost embarrassing, and I end up getting a lot of "I told you so", from my family. Now I think I've found something that may help me do everything I have wanted to do in my life. When it comes to how I feel about helping others and giving back, I'm still getting negative vibes. I have been working so hard at trying to make it work, it hasn't been easy. Why do some people have to make it so hard, especially when you feel like it could help them too?
So, everyone is suspicious, doubting, not trusting my intentions. I'm still going on with my plan, even if it kills me. I tried it once, and I messed up. I may never have another team as I had then. And this is even more simple than taking surveys. I can't loose any money it's free to join. The only hard part has been finding quality people who can see the same potential that I do. Someone who wants to do good for humanity, there community or church. Where do you find people like that, they say they care, but they have way too many excuses for not getting involved.
I remember I use to feel that way too, so I can understand. I found that it takes a lot more courage to keep doing something that everyone else thinks it's crazy. As long as I don't go overboard in trying to promote a free business venture, that gives you a website, gives you all the tools for marketing, all the information, plus the moral support. But I meet with resistance from people who want to make extra money, organizations that could use the funds for there charitable work. Maybe I should pitch it to the people who are well off and can afford to buy one thing a month, no matter if it's a ink cartridge for their printer like I did. I needed it anyway, I didn't have to drive all over town to look for it. That was good. It took no time to get here either. I'm proud of myself. Now if only my family could be proud of me.
Hey, at least I get to shop and still use Clipmarks....
Clipmarks has Ruined my Life
I'm obsessed with Clipmarks, I rarely eat, sleep, shop, or have a love life...
(well, I have to blame it on something)
I'm a mad woman, a recluse, glued to my computer screen, reading and clipping and commenting on the Clipmarks web page. Day after day, night after night....I can't get enough of it, sometimes I even dream about clipping. I think to myself ..."what can I clip today?"
Maybe it's my fault, my curiosity , my love of gadgets, my unending need for information. They have me at there mercy, " I Love You Guys ! "
I'm having so much fun using this application, it's free to install, free to use and the people using Clipmarks, from professional journalists, bloggers, students, even grandmother's like me can get together and share what we find on the Internet.
Think of the possibilities, children from grade school, college students, foreign exchange students, all could learn so much more. If only I had Clipmarks when I was going to school, what am I saying, if only I had a computer when I was growing up...I might have been able to talk my daddy into putting me through college... nah, he didn't believe in sending a "girl" to college. But, that's another story.
For now I'll just be happy "clipping, all the live long day", singing...
"I'm a clipper, he's a clipper, you're a clipper, wouldn't you like to be a clipper too? "
(it's like the Dr. Pepper jingle)
Happy clipping everyone!
Survivor Dreams
Survivor Dreams
Free to Join...a system anyone can use to help make a difference. See for yourself what one woman brought to the table that gives us no excuse for anyone not to be able to do there part. With all the suffering in this world, it does my heart good to know ," I " can elevate someones suffering by doing one simple thing a month.
Something I do on a regular basis but helps no one, all that has changed for me and my friends who want to help change the world...Its almost too simple, and it hurts no one...I ask you today to take the challenge and please check it out for yourself. Tomorrow you may feel better about yourself for taking the step for those less fortunate.
A little goes a long way when we all work together...
We hope that you are well on your way to giving away Malls and creating a team that will lead you to Financial Freedom. Toward that goal we have some very important information to position you for fast growth with MPM.
Join me today at Survivor Dreams Mall, where your dreams come true.
Free to Join...a system anyone can use to help make a difference. See for yourself what one woman brought to the table that gives us no excuse for anyone not to be able to do there part. With all the suffering in this world, it does my heart good to know ," I " can elevate someones suffering by doing one simple thing a month.
Something I do on a regular basis but helps no one, all that has changed for me and my friends who want to help change the world...Its almost too simple, and it hurts no one...I ask you today to take the challenge and please check it out for yourself. Tomorrow you may feel better about yourself for taking the step for those less fortunate.
Make it your business to save a child from poverty and bring more awareness to something that each and every one of us can do to create a better world by doing something we do everyday...only through My Power Mall can you do that and give back..." its your choice."
A little goes a long way when we all work together...
We hope that you are well on your way to giving away Malls and creating a team that will lead you to Financial Freedom. Toward that goal we have some very important information to position you for fast growth with MPM.
Join me today at Survivor Dreams Mall, where your dreams come true.
Survivor's Dream
To help survivors " Tell th World " , I have used this picture, to show peace, hope and of serenity on products I have made. Anyone who is a survivor or knows of someone who has survived anything tragic in there lives can help others by sharing this picture of hope to all...I even use it as a good way to show how much you are thinking of someone special. Help me to spread the word , eradicate fear and ignorance by buying my products of Hope and Love. My kindest thanks to you for your participation in a worthy and just cause.
Peace & Love, Always
Beauty Everywhere
On my trip to the Bahamas I found peace and serenity in the beautiful scenery. This is just one of my views from my balcony of The Crystal Palace Casino & Resort in Nassau. Even though I can still feel the essence of the breath taking view, my words are pale compared to emotions experienced in being there in person. Hopefully by God's grace I will be able to see what beauty he has given us in the near future. Because sharing my experiences is one way of sharing his presence. That makes for a life worthwhile.
An Angel's Whisper
When I was thirteen years old, a neighbor friend and I were taken to a popular swimming hole, called Permastone Lake. The lake with a crowded beach on three sides was active with children and their families, radio's blasting, kids screaming in delight, running to chase each other, then jumping into the shallow water just below their knees.
In the mean time my friend, Gail had been sitting on our blanket just watching ...I asked her "why don't you come and give it a try, its real fun?"
"Oh, come on, it will just take a second and we'll be back on the shore on the blanket, you'll see."
Gail slowly lowered herself into the water, sometimes she would act like she just couldn't get in, cause it was too cold. "Hurry up, grab my arm and I'll swim us over to the ladder." Finally Gail hurled herself my way grabbing me by my shoulder and my neck, no way could I swim...both of us were under water, she started kicking and climbing all over me to get to the top. Opening my eyes all I could see is a green haze and an occasional foot or arm swinging by my face... I knew I had to do something,
Wouldn't you know my friend Gail was sitting there tightly wrapped in her towel, still shivering, . She had no idea where I was, and I couldn't bring myself to tell her, till much later.
The most popular play things were farther to the center of the lake, the Tarzan swing, high diving boards, and floating rafts, most could be accessed by the narrow pier.That's how I would go to the slide, over and over again...almost near the end of the pier there was a ladder, to go down into the water and swim just a few feet to the latter of the tall slide.I thought it was so much fun, slide down, hit the water, go straight down and then the pressure would just shoot you back up to the top. From there all I had to do was swim a few strokes to shallow water. And I was back on the sandy shore once again.
In the mean time my friend, Gail had been sitting on our blanket just watching ...I asked her "why don't you come and give it a try, its real fun?"
"No" she said " I don't know how to swim." ..."Oh, thats no problem ", I said, "I can help you cross over to the ladder, and then, all you have to do is slide down, and you'll pop right up out of the water, then you can do the dog paddle till you can feel the bottom." "It will be real easy to do"
Well, after thinking about it for awhile, Gail agreed to give it a try. I thought she would, she didn't want to be called a chicken anyway.As I led the way out to the ladder, Gail was lagging behind, I kept calling to her to hurry up. It was getting to be around lunch time, so most of the kids passing us to our left were in a hurry. Some of them were pushing people out of the way, most of them landing in the cold lake.
"How deep is the water over here ?" Gail asked.So, there we were, me in the water and Gail sitting on the pier, clearly not to sure about what she wanted to do..."The water looks so black, and its a lot colder too," she said, while she stuck one foot in.
"I don't know ," looking around, on the ladder I could see a red mark with the number 12 or 15 on it.... I didn't mention it to her though.
"Oh, come on, it will just take a second and we'll be back on the shore on the blanket, you'll see."
Gail slowly lowered herself into the water, sometimes she would act like she just couldn't get in, cause it was too cold. "Hurry up, grab my arm and I'll swim us over to the ladder." Finally Gail hurled herself my way grabbing me by my shoulder and my neck, no way could I swim...both of us were under water, she started kicking and climbing all over me to get to the top. Opening my eyes all I could see is a green haze and an occasional foot or arm swinging by my face... I knew I had to do something,
"I prayed Lord please give me the strength to help her,"then it came to me, I grabbed a hold of her waist and with all my might, I hurled her towards the piers ladder...as she left my arms, I could feel myself being pulled under like a magnet, I managed to gulp some air before sinking like a rock to the very bottom of that lake.I couldn't believe it, I was standing there... I felt my feet on the sandy bottom of the freezing water. With my eyes wide open, facing the black underside of the pier, not knowing what to do. I felt sure Gail would call for help, so someone would find me...and then again maybe not. I felt as if I were screaming at the top of my lungs inside my own head...so I prayed again, this time for me.
" Lord please help me...please Jesus", I was petrified with fear, as I repeated my plea, over and over. After what felt like an eternity, all my senses were calm, I felt an eerie kind of peace come over me, the water surrounding my body felt warm, as if I were being cradled in someones arms. As I looking down at my feet , almost not believing my own eyes, I could see that I was standing in a circle of light....not a blinding kind of yellow light...it was white. My body was encased in a soft white light that felt like love of the purest form. I looked up and could see the sun coming through the top of the water, straight to were I stood.It was so quite...so calming...I never felt like that before. Then I heard it, a voice calling my name, it said it over and over till I thought to myself...
"What?"...The voice said, " Mary, you can (stressing the can) swim, remember?"..."Oh,yea, I can"...feeling a little silly... raising my arms up, it took little effort as I drifted up, closer and closer to the top, I felt light as a feather. I held out my hand to grasp the ladder, waisting no time, my feet landed on that old wooden pier, now hot as a griddle.
Filled with a renewed spirit, I tried to contain the excitement I felt , thanking God all the while, till I found my way back to the blanket on shore.
Wouldn't you know my friend Gail was sitting there tightly wrapped in her towel, still shivering, . She had no idea where I was, and I couldn't bring myself to tell her, till much later.
The voice that saved my life, was my Guardian Angel. One of the worst and most wonderful experience of my life, happened at the bottom of a lake. I'll never forget the fear, I'll always remember who I can count on. It wasn't my time to go, but I know that if it were, it would have been a tender passing.I hope to tell this story to my grandchildren, so they will know I'm not afraid, and neither should they be afraid for me.
Looking Forward to Life
Without being controlled, like a child...
I venture out on my own, not knowing where to start.
And at every turn I have concern of what will happen with my heart...
Its sad at my age I let myself get lost in someone else's world, and never having a chance to make my own.
But I realize that is all I have known for almost 20 years...A new found freedom can be a scary one.
Only time will tell if I have made a better choice.
With prayers I'll say goodnight.
I venture out on my own, not knowing where to start.
And at every turn I have concern of what will happen with my heart...
Its sad at my age I let myself get lost in someone else's world, and never having a chance to make my own.
But I realize that is all I have known for almost 20 years...A new found freedom can be a scary one.
Only time will tell if I have made a better choice.
With prayers I'll say goodnight.
THE CREATION of NEW BEGINNINGS
New beginnings start out as an idea, with hopes and dreams. My biggest dream is to help spread the word of the signs and symptoms of brain tumors.
Since I am a meningioma survivor, and have lived through the confusion of all the symptoms before being diagnosed. I can truthfully say there is a need for the education and awareness of the possibility that someday even you or someone you love will someday hear, " you have a brain tumor ".
Although usually a slow growing brain tumor such as the meningioma is often benign, the location and size is just as dangerous as a malignant one.
My dream is for earlier detection and treatment for those affected. That means not only to educate the public, but doctors as well. Anyone having strange or unusual symptoms should at least get the attention of an understanding and caring physician who would at least try to rule out the possibility of a brain tumor.
Confessions of an Infomaniac
I have to admit, the Internet has been my best source of information. When it comes to technology its all right here, for everyone. It's made my life easy , plus hard. It's easy because it becomes a source of adventure. especially when it comes to someones expression , views and interests and how they display them.
Hard because there is so much of it I don't think I'll ever finish it...
I get excited when I think about bringing this news to people who don't surf the web as much as I do. I have to admit it may be addictive. Like the mentality of the brain to obsess about information. When it goes into overdrive, you turn into an infomainiac.
That's me the infomaniac....making life worthwhile.
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